A Vision that Comes

For years, I would have a vision whenever i thought about where my life was heading. And it was always the same. It came so much that I started dreaming about it. Here is the vision first...

I am standing in a desert where the there is no sign of life. No grass, no weeds, no animals. And there is nothing to signify that life even existed where I was standing. The ground was so dry that there were huge cracks all over the place. There were clouds overhead, dark and taunting. They had the look of letting down rain but I knew they would not. I stood there, clothes ragged, torn, and dirty. My head was hanging low and I stood alone.

This vision came to me so often that it eventually turned into a dream...

As I stood there, I looked at the dry ground that cried out for water. Inside i felt the very same way. I felt as if I was so desperate for something I need but was unable to attain it. I could feel the dryness and the heat of the desert. My throat tight and dry. I looked around at the desolate plain and tried to find someone or somewhere I could go to get away but the plain was endless. I then turned my gaze to the sky and saw the clouds. They were full of water and ready to let the rain fall, but they wouldn't. Lightening struck in the distance and it was the only other sound besides my breath and my beating heart. Slowly and softly, a voice came to me. "Look at where you are. You are all alone." At first the voice sounded as if it was informing me. But as it went on, it became an insulting and taunting voice. "You see where you are? You are all alone. You are deserted and have been abandoned. Your choices led you here. And now... you realize a truth that you ignored...." As the voice was saying this, pain entered my heart as tears were lining up to pour out. The voice became so loud and powerful that it knocked me off my feet as it said, "THIS IS WHAT YOU DESERVE!!!!" "NOOOOOOO!!!!" I screamed in rebuke. "This is not my destiny! This is not how it ends!" Silence. The sound of my heavy breathing was the only thing heard for the longest time. Then the voice calmly and mockingly asked, "Then how did you get here?"

I would always wake up from this dream right at this point. Still breathing heavy, heart pounding, and covered in sweat. This plagued me for so long. I then asked God what it meant. Here is the reply I got from Him...

"My child, you are heading down a path that will lead you there. I have been trying to open your eyes for sometime now but you ignored me. And because you refused to listen, i let the destination of your path be clear. So clear that it would you could feel it. The voice you heard was not mine, it was Satan's. This is where he wants you. He wants you to be there. And the reason he is going after you is because he KNOWS what you can do if you whole-heartedly follow after me. Don't walk away from me, I am protecting you. Follow me and your path will not lead to destruction and isolation. It will not be easy, but it will be safe. I love you and I will do anything for you, my son."